Phan: What Actually Happened in Florida- Part 4.5Title: Phan: What Actually Happened in Florida- Part 4.5Author: Phan-SooriginalWarnings: noneDay One-ThursdayDan-I hear Phil waking up, to be honest I've been up for an hour now tweeting, reblogging, wait for Phil to wake up, anything so I don't fall asleep. I see my shirt still on Phil's face, maybe he does like me, pft, then I see him quickly discarded my shirt to the other side of the room when my bed creeks."Hey, do you know where my shirt is?" I say will all the cockiness I can muster at 7am, stupid jetlag,"Nope, breakfast?"; I could see his cheeks go red, aw, he was so cute."Sure, what you got?" As I stumble to the kitchen, I see a box of Lucky Charms, I need those before I leave. When I reply with last time I'm in America, there seemed to be something in Phil's eyes, like not sadness like a mixture with hope, I don't quite know.When Phil's turns round I can his eyes on me, he knows I eat like a pig so why is he so bothered about how I look. I only feel the sight leave m
Phan: The Perfect MixTitle: Phan: The Perfect MixArthur: Phan-SooriginalWarnings: you know this by now, self-harm, and death
As his sweat mixes with the pool of blood underneath him, he couldn't help but keep on cutting; the feeling was too addictive for him. When his compass grew blunt, he dragged himself round his room, just able to stand up with the new marks on his stomach. Out of the corner he spots a pair of scissors, these will do he says fondly to himself. He soon realizes the blades won't stretch far enough for him to slice his skin, but his inner psychopath has thought of a million ways he could use it. After thinking through a few ideas that his inner self has given to his consciousness he rests on one, he collects a bit of skin and starts nipping it with the ends. The pain is unbearable but that's exactly what he wants. He needs to feel the pain he deserves. Within a second his body is beating its final beat, and breathing its final breath. Soon his dying body has splashes of someon
Phan: Lost Connection.Title: Phan: Lost Connection. Author: Phan-SooriginalGenre: I have no idea:/Warnings: self-harm, as usual
.I've felt so crap since Phil left, it's hard to explain, he meant everything to me and I fucked it up. I'm still not even sure what I did; it was probably me being too needy and comfortable, my annoying habits. I haven't checked facebook in months, YouTube is weeks, twitter for days, and now I don't even play Angry Birds, or reply to Peej's texts I know there worried but a piece of me just wants to die, I've got nothing to live for anymore, it's all too complicated. When I went on twitter, YouTube, tumblr, I lost connection with the outside world, now I'm fighting a losing battle with this one too. All I do is draw; I draw Phil, cuts, bruises, graves, broken heart and 'emo shit' as most people would call it. But it's nice expressing my emotions on to pencil and paper, it's the only way I know how to anymore. This will probably be my last post on tumblr and I do
KickTheNerimon: Forever RollerbladesTitle: KickTheNerimon: Forever RollerBladesAuthor: Phan-SoOriginalWarnings: none..PJ-I was at Summer in The City, this was the day me and Alex were going to come out. As I walk in with Dan a group of fans came running up to us, with various presents, and things. I love it when the fans give us presents it me feel so special.Then me and Alex lock eyes, the only people who knew about us were Charlie, Tom, Edd, Chris, Phil, and Dan, we'd been dating for 6 months now but either of us knew how to tell the Nermies and the fans. We knew they'd accept us, but it was weird. Then he got dragged away on stage, he was playing his new album, as usual I stood there smiling at his beautiful body floats around the stage, he suddenly stops "This next song is dedictadted to my beautiful boyriend." There were a few confesd mumurs and gasps, but the only yhitng that stood out was when someone shouted "CHERIMON IS REAL." Hahahaha, um no. After he had sung Hearts, which brought a tear to my eye, he sta
Phan: I Just Can't StopTitle: Phan: I Just Can't StopArthur: Phan-SooriginalWarnings: selfharm.It wasn't as nice on your hip, the feeling was there, the blood was pouring down my leg, the lost hope and the accomplishment was there, yeah, that's fine, but it wasn't the same, it was like 2 sides of the same coin it was hard to explain, nobody really understands. I had to cut there though, it was the only place Dan didn't check now he has found out about me my addiction, I should have been more careful but the adrenaline was too much, it was too powerful. But everyday my arms would call out, screaming to be released but I couldn't, I needed to, it was too hard, but the temptation was there. Dan thought he was helping but he wasn't he was doing the opposite he was always there for me, he was always doing what I wanted because he said he was my best friend, but that was the problem he was my best friend I wanted more, I wanted him to be my boyfriend, my everything, he already was but I wanted him to
Any Parings?Only a few people will read this but oh well..Even if this was written a year agoStill comment!I really want to write for as many original paring as possible-SoKickTheStickz,Cherimon,Phan,Ianthony,JohnLockNo, just don't comment themBut if you comment Phan, or Cherimon or whatever I'll post an Anti-Phan or Anti-Cherimon or Anti-*insert pairing!*Anything will be accepted,Vloggers/YouTubersMCRSherlockMOST IMPORTANTNESSwhich either on you do smut or no smut?If you do unlimited food of your choice. . .
Phan: What Actually Happened in Florida? - Part 4Title: Phan: What Actually Happened in Florida- Part 4Author: Phan-SooriginalWarnings: noneDay One-ThursdayPhil-As I wake up with Dan's shirt still splayed across my face, I remember the course of last night.As I heard Dan stir I quickly wake up and throw the shirt to the other side of the room, I hope he didn't see that."Hey Dan." I croak out."Hey, do you know where my shirt is?" I could see the smirk in his voice."Nope, do you want some breakfast?""Sure, what you got?""Toast or Lucky Charms?""Um, since this might be the last time I'm in America I'll go for the Charms. What you having?" Oh Dan, trust me you'll be coming again."Okay, toast, I'm allergic to Lucky Charms." Before I had even time to put my bread in the toaster Dan has eaten half the freakin' bowl, I hate the fact even when he's eating like a pig he's somehow hot. A small movement made my mind twig back to the fact I was eating, but I didn't feel like eating anymore my mind was too full of Dan."Aren't you gon
Phan: Contemplating SuicideTitle: Phan: Contemplating Suicide Author: Phan-SooriginalWarnings: selfharm.It all started when I was younger, the torture, the bullying, I thought at high school it would be different, I thought because so many different people were there I'd have at least on friend maybe not. When I arrived on my first day I noticed that nobody was there I made my way to the hall like I got told to when he had the induction day in year 6 but nobody was there then a teacher told me I was 30 minutes early, then I explained the fact I had no friends and he just laughed, then people for my old school came in and started screaming you don't want to be friends with that EMO. And he just laughed with them, he laughed at me, I don't know I suppose my expectations of school were too high, all I wanted was a place I could get away from the abuse emotional and physical. I do have this one friend in year 11 but she doesn't talk to me at school, she doesn't want to be labelled as a loser and I can'
KickThePhil/AmazingPJ:Rome is the New City of LoveTitle: KickThePhil / AmazingPJ: Rome is the New City of LoveAuthor: Phan-SooriginalWarnings: one swear word!As the sun fell over Italy two boys were far from falling asleep.Phil-I hear Peej kick his sheet across his bed in some harmonious beat. I can't help but wonder what sort of evil twin of Fuzzwalds he is facing now in some far off land, I hope I'm there helping him, fighting whatever amazing creature Peej had created with his beautiful mind."Peej." I whispered if not by accident."Phil?" He said with that accent that made me weak at the knees."You alright?" I tried to say in the quietest voice I could because Chris and Dan were across the room. They were so perfect for each other, I can't even remember how long me and Peej had been trying to make them go out. But I remember when they did, me and Peej were so relived, only if that happened between me and Peej... me and Peej, me and Peej, more like 2 members of the Fantastic four that never talk to each other on camera."No